So there’s a new book.

It’s the third Jace Salome novel and it’ll hit the streets November 20, from Down and Out Books. I hope you’ll check it out.

Having a new book out is always a bitter sweet thing. Getting published is something that tens of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands, of people want to do but are never able so right off the bat I’m further along than a great many people.  I recognize that. All the same, when a book does come out, I am totally at a loss as to how to handle it.

Writing and publishing is an ego trip, let’s understand that.  Writers have to have a world-class ego to assume they have anything interesting to say and that they can say it in a way that people will want to read. So already we’re talking about swimming in ego.

And sure as hell I’ve got an ego the size of Texas, but for me? I hate, hate, doing promotional work.  Love reading for people, love writing guest blog posts, but hate feeling the need to tell everyone, “Hey, I’ve got a book,” in hopes that you’ll buy one and tell two friends, and they’ll tell two friends, and so on and so on….

And yet, if I don’t do something, my book gets lost in the white noise of 21st century American culture, where everyone has a show and everyone has a platform and everyone is famous or pre-famous.

(Don’t laugh, when I was in Denver, there were some members of the writing community, not yet published, who called themselves ‘pre-published.’ It was a load of horseshit then and it’s a load of horseshit now.)

In a perfect world, the hordes would flock to their favorite outlets to buy hundreds of copies. Except this isn’t the perfect world and it doesn’t work like that. In fact, in the 12 years since my first novel came out, I’m still not sure how to find those hordes.

But I do all the things my publisher tells me to do and I have fun with all those things and if they work, great.  If not, eh, at least I tried.

Understand, I differentiate between writing and publishing. Writing is doing the work, creating the art-be it filet mignon or a McDonald’s cheeseburger. Publishing is the afterward.  In an odd way, publishing is cleaning up after great sex whereas writing is the great sex itself.

Hmmm, not the most elegant analogy ever.

Maybe that’s why the hordes are staying away. It ain’t the publishing…it’s the shitty metaphors!

Anyway, the new book is out.  Give it a read.  If you love it, tell two friends.  If you hate it, I’ll give you your money back.

Maybe.

 

“I hate the idea of dying, because I’m afraid I’m going to miss something.  As long as you’re alive, there’s always more time,” Ed Bryant in Westword, May, 2000.

Ed Bryant died February 10.

Shock.  Surprise.  Sadness.  Hatred for the thirsty inevitability of death.

But also laughter.

This man, one of the giants of science fiction and horror, the single most giving teacher I’ve ever known, made me laugh all the fucking time.

He brought me a gift once.  I don’t remember why we were together…dinner or a literary thing or who knows what…but there was nothing special enough about that particular moment to bring a gift.

A gun sight for a bazooka.

Seriously. I was all like, “What the fuck is this?”

He said, completely straight-faced, “For a bazooka.  It’s a sight.”

I waited for him to say something like, “So you can blast all those editors who don’t buy your stories,” or “So you can explode the world with your literary genius.”

The man didn’t say dick.  He gave it to me, laughed, and walked away.  Turns out he’d found eight or ten at a flea market and just thought it was funny.

Yes, he taught me how to write, as he did for so many people.  He taught me how to channel and focus and develop all the stories whirling around in my head and that was great.

But he also taught me how to read.  He taught me how to see the deeper terrain of a writer’s words, the subterranean world all writers leave behind even when they don’t realize they do.

That was maybe the greatest secret he taught me about writing.

But don’t short change his own writing in everything you’ll hear about what an incredible teacher he was. The Thermals of August is one of the best things he ever wrote. Stunning in its simplicity but epic in its quiet scope.  It was just a love story, except the world trapped beneath that hushed love story was as deep and dangerous and wide as the sky through which the characters glide.

And for pure hilarity? Read Aqua Sancta.  Very short, like 100 words maybe.  Obviously I can’t tell you because that would blow the whole story but dig it up, I promise you’ll laugh your ass off.

Ed, above all, loved words regardless of where they came from, and championed newer writers.

When I went to World Horror Convention in Eugene, Oregon in 1996, I was a brand new writer.  I had published very little to that point, and nothing of note.  Yet at the end of his reading, in front of a packed room because everyone goes to an Ed Bryant reading, he brought me on stage to read a little something of my own.

He had no reason to do that other than helping a new writer who desperately wanted to be noticed and taken seriously.

Later, in Phoenix in 1998, I had sold a few stories, including to a few high recognition anthologies and magazines.  I was becoming a known quantity and had the ego to prove it.

Charles Grant, one of the giants of 80s horror, had surreptitiously shown up to the convention.  Crowds were agog because he was getting older and didn’t travel much.  The man had published, to that point, 104,027,207 novels and stories, and convention attendees were salivating to be in line for him during the mass signing.

A quick aside here, the mass signing is one of the coolest things ever.  Conventions stuff every attending author into a single cavernous room and fans wander table to table and get everything signed by all the authors.  They are great fun for everyone involved.

So for that mass signing, they put me at a table with?

Charles Fucking Grant.

I almost had a stroke. I had read this man as fervently as I had read Stephen King and Peter Straub and just could not get my head around the fact that I would be sitting next to him for the entire signing!  I would be able to pick his brain and learn and soak in his aura.

Uh…not so much.

The line to have Grant sign books coiled like a snake throughout the room, out the door, up the stairs, out the lobby, into the parking lot, across the Arizonan desert, along the Rio Grande River to the Gulf of Mexico where it boarded a steamer heading out for seedy South American ports, where it disembarked, found a sleazy bar, got some local agave juice, and drank itself into a stupor waiting for the line to fucking move!

And the line for Trey R. Barker?

Nada.

I didn’t have a single person.  Talk about a kick to the balls (it was actually a good reality check and since then I’ve tried to be more like Kirk Hammett in terms of ego…I fail miserably).

But in the midst of that humiliation, along came Ed Bryant to save my day.

With a large bag in his head, he made a beeline toward me.  Not once did he look at Grant.  This was all about me and having me sign for at least half an hour. It was obvious Ed had brought copies of everything I’d appeared in; magazines, anthologies, a chapbook, everything.  I was so excited.

“Hey, thanks, man, I really appreciate it.”

He nodded toward Grant, “Yeah, have him sign these for me,” and walked away, his shoulders bouncing up and down as he laughed.

I was speechless, not something that happens easily with me.  I spluttered and banged my fist against the table and ground my teeth and plotted way to kill Ed Bryant violently and brutally dead.

Except, way down in the bottom of the bag, the absolute last thing, was a copy of my chapbook.

I remember sitting there another half hour or however long the signing lasted, somehow content, opening the books of fans for Grant so he could sign them, a copy of my chapbook on the table in front of me, and shaking my damned head at Mr. Edward Bryant and laughing every few minutes.

Straight up Ed.  Supportive and funny at the same time.

There are a million other stories, from a million other writers, but in the end they are all the same.  Ed Bryant was about words and loved those who put them together earnestly.

I loved him, love him still, and will miss him as much as other friends I’ve recently lost. Ed Gorman…Melanie Tem…Tom Piccirilli…Sean Moore lo those many years ago.

It happens to everyone, it is life, but it still makes me angry.  There are so many more good words those guys could have written if they’d had time.

Hang on…

Fuck me, the collaborative novel that crew can write now that they’ve got endless time.  Holy shit, I’m getting light-headed just thinking about it.

Bye, Ed.

We’re closing in on the end.  Only a few days left for the East of the Sun Book Tour fundraiser.

 

https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/east-of-the-sun-book-tour-books#/

 

https://treyrbarker.com/2016/12/12/2435/

 

Only five days left to toss some cash to the ’17 book tour effort……

 

https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/east-of-the-sun-book-tour-books#/

https://treyrbarker.com/2016/12/10/2431/

Ed Gorman died.

While I wasn’t surprised, I was shaken.

He had been fighting cancer for years and I’m guessing he was just tired.

He was a good man, simply said.  All the superlatives fit him and all are well deserved, but in the end, his life and work and all the rest come down to that; he was a good man.

In the days after my heart attack, February 18, 2001, I received all kinds of phone calls and emails and letters and whatnot wishing me a speedy recovery and best of all possible worlds.  It was nice to open a batch of those every day and realize my world was a bit larger than I had consciously thought about.

(Though it was odd to be asked by an editor wearing  San Jose Sharks jersey if my heart attack was a publicity stunt…doubly so considering I had nothing out at the time that would have benefited from such a well thought out and not at all expensive…$38,000 for twenty-four hours in cardiac ICU…stunt.)

In the course of getting all these letters and cards and all the rest, I got a box (and yeah, for a few seconds, I thought I was in Jack Ketchum’s 1994 story, ‘The Box.’).  I remember sitting on the west-facing porch in Denver and just staring at the box for a few minutes.

It had Ed Gorman’s address and his handwriting.

During the year previous, Ed and I had gotten to be decent friends…by which I mean we talked on the phone often and via email constantly.  I never actually met the man face to face.  He didn’t much like leaving his home.

So getting a package from this man I was just getting to know both freaked me out and made me feel like a kid at Christmastime.

Inside?  Obviously…books.  Like every book he had published going back to the 17th century or something.  Westerns, crime, mystery, horror, a virtual guided tour of his novel output over the previous 20 years.

I sat there on that porch for the next six weeks, slowly mending back to health, and read every word.  Yeah, the man was an amazing writer, when he was at his best he was straight up better than damn near anyone else writing.  His plots were well paced and his characterizations deft and incisive, and it was an incredible experience reading that much of one writer in that short of a time (the literary version of binge watching Narcos or something on Netflix).

But what made that box, and those books, even better than the delicious words on the page was the fact that this man, who knew me only from emails and phone calls and my own writing, cared enough to package up a library and send it.

He was a good man.

From his blog, August 22, 2008:

“Last week I started rereading 2000 Miles To Open Road by Trey R. Barker. We had in common…the fact that we were both going through the early stages of battling cancer. Trey’s experience was brutal. But the cancer diary he kept is one of the most eloquent and articulate pieces of real life I’ve ever read. Happily he’s doing well now.”

I offer that not as some pat on my own back but to illustrate that even as he was trying to help a young writer by promoting my work on his blog, he was conscious of the things that make us all human.  We had exchanged emails back and forth about our battles with cancer and he laughed at some part of ‘The Cancer Chronicles,’ because he lived through the same indignities.

Elizabeth Engstrom, another of my favorite writers, had also had some battles.  Where Ed started with thyroid cancer in 2001, he soon moved into multiple myeloma.  Liz and I shared melanoma, and we spent many an hour emailing back and forth about the nightmare.

I found myself thinking about that box of books yesterday when I heard the news about Ed.  The wonderful simplicity of a box of books touched my soul as deeply as a black-hearted bastard like me can be touched.  I remember sitting there for what felt like a lifetime just slowly reading each word on the front cover, then moving to the back cover, then soaking in the artwork, then the reviews and blurbs in the first few pages, then moving on to the next book.  It was probably two hours before I even settled in and cracked the spine on one.

I still have most of those books, though some have become worn from constant rereading.  And quite a few of them have long underlined passages and highlighted sections, as would any regular text book from which someone wanted to learn.

I have learned much from Ed Gorman and suspect that learning is not yet finished.

Thank you, Ed, for everything.  Godspeed and just think about all the time you have now to read now….